i was actually stunt!!

thax to all of my classmates

especially to my housemates!!!

me luv you guys...

thax for the gifts!

i'm so gonna wear it like next week to school

cuz it so cool dat u guys beli yg the hoody thingy~~~~

i really appreciate dat a lot!!

a pic of my bufday kek~~~kawaii (yamapi?! LOL)

cabaran + dugaan

it's bulan ramadhan everyone!!!
so heppy cuz everything is ibadat~~~~
well let's skip to the main thing
u know wat happen?
the day be4 posa, i lost my precious things:
1) IC
2) student ID card
3) bank card
and plus, my 30 ringgit cash!!!
and all happen went me n my family
we went for shooping dat weekend
and we went to pray (maghrib)

i swear my bag was always wif me
all day long....
dat night was also a bad night for the whole family
my mom's car broke down>>>>cannot start at all
so we had to walked to the bus stop bout less than 500m laa...
still it was tiring day!!!
then, after the bus took us only at the front of our taman
we need to walked all the way to rumah
till me n mom sakit2 kaki (ouch!)
at dat time, i tot dat all my stuff were wif me (in the bag)

it was'nt long till i found out dat morning went i wanted to go n see doc.
it was missing!!!
i've search everywhere....
but no luck!
"ya Allah, byknye dugaan kau beri pada ku..."
it was the first day of posa
feeling tired n motionless,
me n mom gathered our strenght to go to clinic
fot hep B injection....
we went for several clinics (none of them got the injection)
then, we tried our luck on clinic infront of YAWATA
Alhamdullilah la....ade
but the doc wasn't there (2p.m br ada)

so we went to the police station for the report
it took us bout one n half hour for the report
there were less people there in the office
but the police took so much time to put the ayat2 for the report
hahahaha...kelakar la gak! :)
then it's raining heavily
dahla nek moto jer....
so we terpaksala>>>meredah the hujan!!!
it was very long afternoon
i pity mom cuz she had to go through all of dis cuz of my silly mistake!!
hmm...really it was full of cabaran + dugaan
but still i humbly accept them all
cuz i know someday~~~there would be a lucky day for me n my family
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kete rosak: 21/08/09

no PaiN, No gAiN~~~

well first i just wanna keep it quite
tryin to be cool
relax and don't bother
bout wat people would say bout me
but then i just couldn't stand it anymore
people always complainin
they,
who i believed "frens" always sayin
nanana....lalalala....dadadada
dis and dat!
"dinee, kau nie x hbs2 nk study!"

so wat?!
i'm not dat kind of person
who can remember everything (almost) like everybody else

yeah...
i think i had a "short term memory loss" or something
i just couldn't memorised well like people do
and even though i always doin
a lot of questions....a lot of exercises
but still, i couldn't remember
wat was the question
and even though it was just yesterday
still, my memory just couldn't stand dat info
they just wanted to delete!

i just couldn't stand dat...
i makes me wanna cried
but why should i?
why should i cried over somethin
dat is good for me?
for my future?


then,
i realised, i should not cared bout
wat people would said bout me
or looked at me
i know, i'm not dat pandai...
or pretty,
or good in watever thingy~~~
still....
its me!!
if u wanna be frens wif me,
u should be able to understand dat
and accepted me for who i am
and wat I'm not


and well....
i managed to do dat,
after i did my oath on the other day (last post)
i couldn't care more less wat others would say
i just keep on goin
till i finally meet my dreams...
till i satisfies on wat i had


u know,
last four days ago
i force myself to do wat normal people
can't afford to do
i stay in the library till 4.45
got home and at 6.00 sharp
i was on my way to the study room on level one
crazy huh?!
and i stayed there till 11pm
tired....but satisfied!
same goes on for the next day

hopefully dis keep goin till the end of dis year!!

i'm ILL!!

well...
today was a day like no other..
it was indeed a misserable day for me
cuz,
i'm not feellin' well lately~~~~
i'm so tired,
i even waste most of my time sleepin in the class!!!

tryin to go to the library
tried to read or
maybe memorized some of the biology terms~~~
sure!!
it didn't work out!!
i was so tired...
dat i made up my mind
to write dis on my blog...

the feelings were so super duper tired..
as well as dizzy sometimes...
yet dis doesn't makes me more sedey>>>>
as i watched my frens went to the
Newcastle Presentation TODAY!!!
the feeling of jealousy as well as sadness overwhelmed me
as they mentioned the name "Newcastle"!!!
OK!!
so i didn't get the interview....
so wat???!!!!

The real me~~~

I used to be the kind of girl dat so afraid to let it go
to let everybody know who I am
wat I'm capable of...
I used to be shy
not barve and always being bullied by other people
people always take advantage of my silence
scorne me wen they used me

but this time, not anymore!!!
I have a dream
a dream dat absolutely change me to a different person
becoming more brave,
more independent,
more~~~not shy
I am now able to speak out my voice
and sometimes people would listen to me

this is real!!
this is me!!
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
I'm gonna let myself shine
so dat people would noticed me
now, after I found out who I really am
there's no way to turn me back to my old days~~
I liked the new me!!
the new me rocks!!

before, I've always dreamed about a life
dat I'm the shining star
where I got everything dat I ever wanted
>>> good scores
love by everyone
great presenter
even though it seen too far away
for me to reach,
but wat I've gotta do is believe in myself
dat is the only way for me to keep dreamin'