Saturday, July 7, 2012

everything happen has its own meaning

well guys i'm back!!
hahaha...i know it have been such a long time i haven't post anything
dah 2 tahun kowt! its not dat im busy or somethin, it just dat xtao nk write per?!!
neway now im already in my 3rd year of MBBS in Manipal India
and i'll be returning to MALAYSIA for bout one month from now
i'll be continuing my studies at Melaka..hopefully~

ok lets talk bout my 3rd year dkt manipal
im not sure how to describe it but its like heaven!!
stadi mcm mengarut...tito byk giler...mkn byk!
basically...mmg xbwt paper
just posting, see patient see doctor, dats it!!
i just finished my medicine posting
oso paediatric, OBG n surgery..now i'm in psychiatric posting
trust me among those posting, paling horror is medicine!

its not dat i hate medicine, it just dat i have a bad memory of it
joom story2~~
mase tue aku kene present case and it was monday morning..
the case was patient wif malaria..
so me n my "ceprone" do some history taking n did some abdominal examination
at dat time i was a bit blurry wif abd exmination and jumpe patient wif manual book in my hands
....hahha *i think i look silly dat time*
tp xpe la sbb aku nk blaja, and doc pom just skt2 la aja how to palpate n stuff
so we did...n yg sshnyer is dat the patient mmg xphm english
so the history taking was a bit long n examination bwt mcm2 tue je laa

so time presenting the case, mmg byk la salah
plus the doc was dr. SEEMA a.k.a the scariest, most cruel doc in medicine postg
she is like,the walking devil...jahat pulak aku describe
but seresly she's...i'm not sure if she even have a heart *thinking*
mse present tue aku terime je la wat she say..cuz i really wanted to learn
but the story doesn't end here...

later dat friday, i have presentation on chest pain
and i did my slides, i muggup a bit
i did prepare mentally n physically for dat presentation
cuz the last presentation bout breathlessness, my fren kena teruk giler2 laa...
and she's really tak puas hati at their presentation!
i'm the first who present bout chest pain topic
slide first pom die xpuas hati...n she didn't ask me y..
she ask the audience " are u agree wif her?" xpe la....aku ok lg time tue n ade la kene byk jugak
and she keep asking me "is dis ur slide?" of cos la my slide, aku yg taip sume kot....
tp yg aku xpuas hati, time when she ask me to explain types of pain for each diseases
so i said " it will be on my next slide in table form"
but she said " i wan u to explain now"
so i said " ok i'll moving to next slide"
then she said " no i wan u to explain it now without moving to the slide"
i paused...n explained bit cuz i just dun remember i was tachycardia dat time
biasa la anxiety makes ppl to forget things..simple things
then she ckp lg...is dis ur slide?, theres something wrong wif u n ur presentation...blabla..
and i dun remember wat she's sayin cuz it was too horrible!
then about 20mints later i finished my part..lame sbb die byk bebel

lps abs presentation sume, doc tue dah blah, i dunno y, i cried!!
menagis dgn dasyat giler!! sampai bengkak mate taw x?!
n most of my frens said dat aku mmg kene trok...n she was really mean!
on the way balik, i cried on bus, after sampai rumah pom i cried...
and after bace Al-Quran, i feel better...i did some thinkin bout wat had happen
i think dat maybe Allah put me in dis situation for several things:
no1 He wants me to remember Him
no2 He wanted me to get prepared  
no3 its because He love me
so after dis if some crazy doc do the same thing to me, i won't cry!
bcuz im a strong girl now!

so the moral of the story:
dun ever think dat everything dat had happen to u is the end of the world...
and no one is there to help u...
if u think dat u're in deep shit of trouble, or u think ppl hate u bcuz u're stupid,
please pause for a sec, try to think rationally
and dun forget!! bace Al-Quran...believe me it makes u feel better! ^^
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